Aint a good day to be cherish with

I'd lost
I don't see my soul through the mirror
I don't see the reason to smile anymore
I don't see why should I care about others anymore

Tired of giving
Tired of people criticize instead of appreciate what I had done for them
Tired of faking a smile just to let others feels better

Going home isn't mean I will cure
Indeed family will always be the one who support me, back me up
But they don't seems to understand me well
I might be tied up with them blood and flesh
But my soul are independent and lonely
Resonance was there but no more, it has to be stop for good

I need a break before I mentally break down
This is not what I wanted
Coffee may keep me awake from work
But it don't fuel up my soul
Talking to others seems to absorb only negative aura
Which I am requiring the least now
Alcohol might stop my mind from chaos
But it bring my sorrow upfront

I really need a soul booster now
I'm dying, powerless, aimless